big thought and small thought

Every big thought may be demolished by the small thought, big thought can be pure and small thought can be mean, while you are talking about to go abroad the other small thing can be accomplished along with it, when you are thinking about that small thing or mean thought all the things you have to lose with it,  there is a problem of small sound that distract you till you are not listining that sound it will not distract you, be power full and show youself strong as vhrav, and as kaali, worshiping them worshiping youself , worshiping your thought, noboday going anywhere she will be with you any how, so make big resolution , do great task, dont be so mean and cheap which distroyed your thought and your confidend , sex can be done like vishwamitra and understanding like the same, do some havan with Amit guru, and with the main guru, talk with them as much as possible, invest money there where you can learn, dont think mean but be strong, when go to meet to kashmir show your confident and love to her mother, give some gift where it is required for respect , also do it to your Tai ( baddi amma). You can share your willing to your main guru and he can help you about to abroad.